Friends :)

Sorry for not updating for so long.
Reason:very lazy :p

Alright,just to apologize with some people which i have not meet up with yet. Is not i don't want to,but. Its my personal reason. I treat jurong friend as first,i know is abit too unfair for you all. Hope u all really understand me.....
Those are my friends! :)

AMELIA,is not that i don't care about you. You have to learn to be more independent. And,i always won't let people bully you. You doesn't know,i did alot for you at behide. Helped you talk good things and ask people to help me take care of you. I really happy when u came and visit me at prison.i believe u would :) If i didn't care about you,i won't helped u a single thing. What i done is for the sake of the people,is not for the reward or whatever. That's why i always didn't told you what i helped you.
CELIA,thanks for every time for the visit as well :) What i asked u to help,u would help me very well.
GABRIEL,no matter what u done. u always be my cousin.We knew each other when i was a baby :) 16years you kept me company when i was bored. Thanks for visiting me at prison too! :)
YINSIN,thanks for keeping me company every time as well. You would ask me to eat and eat! Thanks for helping me something as well! *wink* :)
BEEYOKE,cheer up! :) thanks for being my "sister" as well. You always be my listening ear and helped me for something :)
JESSLYN,although we often used to quarrel alot.But,i still treat u as my sister. Thanks for being with me and for coming my sentence court :)
SHARON,you always let me hit for free free! thanks for being with me as well :)


I have met some of my friends,i really glad to see them :)

I remember i was meeting WU QUN papa and leting mama and my sisters for kbox and a walk at scape :) WU QUN never failed to make me laugh at all time. We played and joked together.Its was like last time when we are still VERY young :) (5years of brother ship! Never forget how funny you are.)

I remember i was meeting WEIQI and co for a slacking time at 3head. We used to played and disturb other people at there for a period of time. And,there was alot people at there too! We ton and talk cork at there. (3years of brother ship! Never forget how tall you were.)

I remember i was meeting WEI HOW and simin for finding friend at little india,i used to accompany u to a very far place. We have memories when we was VERY young :) You were still primary 6 that time. (4years of brother shi! Never forget how we accompany each other )

I remember i was meeting MS for a lunch time. We used to have lunch together and it's always your treat. I was one of the biggest eater!! :D You haven't change a bit,still as "tiko" as last time and talked to me about car. (4years of brother ship! Never forget how "tiko" you were)

In my surprise,i saw CHEE YING and KAI JIE at my probation report and program. There's still friends who can accompany me ah.so good :)

I hate:
ALIOS ONG JUN JIE for bombing me! Pooh bear also know how to bomb people!
JADE YEO JUNTI for bombing me! Babo puts a bomb on me! Faster find a time narh :)
REMUS for bombing me! You keeps busy! We going geylang la! :)Prison brother!
CHIT TAT for bombing me! Say will contact after we come out from prison?you die until where "GHIM MING TONG"? :D

I will surely wait for :
MUN FEI,a brother that understand me a lot and protects me from any harm :)
CHING LONG,a 4years brothers.Everytime makes me laugh.
AH HUI,who take care of me at prison and talks to me when i was alone :)
WEI KEONG,a prison brother which he used to take care of me and joke together for a month :)
BOY ZAC,a prison brother which heart to heart talk with me everytime :)

I am sorry,
BEN and QIANG. I will find you both when i am free :(
ANN,meet up soon again next time too.
CASSANDRA,see you soon when i am free.
ALEX,i wonder where u were now :(

Those i never mention,doesn't mean i don't want meet. Text me when you want to meet me :) My number change as well. Take note of that too!:)

BROTHER!I MISS YOU!

u are always a big brother to me,u take care of me and always helped me in a situation when i am confuse of.u tough me alot of things.u understands me alot, u know what i like and u know what i hate.when going out,u saw me emo-ing.u always will asked me what am i thinking and u will asked me not to be sad.u will try talked things out to me.when i passedby food stall,u will asked me want to eat anot ??:) because u know that i always will be hungry.u know that i love to play PS2,u lend me some games to play.
u treated me EAT and DRINKS,when i have no money.
i just wanted to be like last time,we went to so many areas to play.i remember we went to LIM CHU KANG,alot of us went in and started to joke around and played like our own house like that.
althought,i don't like to play SOCCER.i could accompany u played.we played like mad!isn't it funny?
MY BIRTHDAY,u came to celebrate with me without failed.2days!!i was very happy that time :)
VALENTINE DAY,we went to vivo and celebrate :)u bought balloon for amelia and i bought for jesslyn :)
WILD WILD WET,i remember that our plan for going to wild wild wet failed alot of times,but,we did went to there in the end :)

we went to MARINA BARRAGE remember??we have our TRIPLE DATE there,i still remember we went to buy food for our picnic,u created a stupid game and u said to me,"amelia wants what,i buy. jesslyn wants what,u buy. yi ling wants what,kennard buy :D "
i agree with it,because i thought that jesslyn will buy a fews things to help me save money,but,i was wrong :p she bought until 15dollars!!! u kept laugh at me,u bought only 8dollars loh!!! yiling bought only 4dollars ~.~ we choose the wrong person,but,is quite fun ah!!!:)they called us 3 MARIYA :(

we have our picnic at there :)alot people watching us,but,we don't mind :)





we played the water and trying to push kennard into the water :D


we walked a long long way to find a singapore flyer :)






we wear same colour shirt with the girl?we didn't planned at all,is FATE :D
thats why we called TRIPLE DATE :)







we went to the jurong bird park remember??hahahs!!alot of birds,we keep talk to birds like retarded like that. i keep said i want to see crocodile,u keep say i should not come junong bird park,i should go zoo :P we walked and walked until we having a big headaches,and water cost us 3dollars ~.~



we took cab home as there's nothing to watch already :)


we went to suntec city with ching long on OCT.we went to the fountain of wealth :) it was so nice!!!:)


THE PAST OF US :)







we went to bugis and i return back jurong,so unlucky,i was caught by police!


we went to UNIVERSAL STUDIO!!! i remember i kept on FAN u and amelia because jesslyn wanted to go :) it was really great :) i don't dare to play rollar coaster at first,but,it was jesslyn who give me all the courage! i said to you,"i am very hamji one,i afraid of height!!!" u said to me,"i see u fight also never so hamji one." i have nothing to say and just played.u asked me not to put jesslyn alone :)



we played three rollar coaster,i was not so afraid of playing rollar coaster anymore :) we get ourself wet until like we just shower finish.we watched show and walked around.



we have our triple date again:) but,this time is beeyoke and jiawei.not yiling and kennard :)


it was so fun to be with you,i promised u.i will wait for u to come out,i will do it brother :) i really miss you alot u know?? i am really grateful that i have u as my brother.i have no regret knowing u.well,i am waiting u to come out to play all those things with me again :) i having a happy day with u around.u always will nag at me and scolded me sometimes when i done the wrong things.thanks bro for all u done for me!

today everybody SI LIAN le.

was having a good rest before mun fei court,gabriel so early called me,i picked up.kup,sleep..after awhile,jesslyn called me again ~.~ wake again,picked up.then kup. they called at the wrong timing.nvm :) went down to mun fei court with,jesslyn,amelia,gabriel,yinsin,fireboy and co.
waited for 3hours for the result,but,luckily!!! postpone !!!:) was really glad!
headed down to jurong point,jesslyn si lian le,she used me as a punching bag :( say i lao jihong,what 2time her ?? :P
beeyoke came to joined us,as amelia and yi ling went home. catched our bear bear at prize stage !!!:) 1 gay want make friend with me loh !!!CCB!! he keep spy at me sia.beeyoke and jesslyn keep laughing at me :( seriously,if he come closer to me,i sure beat him one. still asked me to make friend with him _!_
went to send jesslyn to interchange,while me,jesslyn,garrison and co went to art park.slacked,me was chatting with beeyoke about something :) she go put make up on my face :( very smelly sia :( send her home at 9 and went back to find them.

headed to 722 to look for mike,slacked and something happen.RUN!!!~~~ after that,SSB screen me and 3 more people. very suey loh!!!4CID SIA!! the most worst part is,that time 1 of the ssb is last time caught me one and another cid got take my photo with CL and co before. they believe us :) (Y) they let us go,i thought,i going to say goodbye to my mother already ~.~
headed back home straight away :)

SINGAPORE FLYER

laughs,picnic was great,with mun fei,kennth,amelia,jesslyn and yi ling:)
at fairprice,mun fei create an stupid idea,he say that.amelia wants what,he treat.jesslyn wants what,i treat.laughs,i say ok straight away.i though,i wont be paying the most money,instead is me :D she go choose what 6.50 salmon.then sushi,then what orange juice.alot bah??i almost faint loh.i also cannot ask her don't buy :( hahas,nvm.as long as she is happy bah:) its cost me about 15 dollars?? mun fei want i think 8dollars?
went to marina bay to have our picinc,but,those stupid girls call us maria??we help them take bag only.i find that i am the most ke lian one loh..
i take the big sandwiches that jesslyn had made,her bag,her jacket and the things we bought at fairprice.take alot picture and headed to singapore flyer:D
we walked a long way,because of our cute jesslyn idea:) reached about 1 hours?we have ourself full of regret.its slow.wasted 20 minute of my time,i am scare of heights :P i rather take those escape theme park thing loh.at least it be exciting and scary loh.
bused home,went to eat mac.send jesslyn home and off i walk home:)
i don't know why i see their smiling,i feels so happy as well:) especially,my baby sister jesslyn:) she was quite emo everytime..but,this day was different:)
yi ling,cheer up as well,u will find a better guy.i can see u are sad today too:(

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SISTER!!:)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SUCKER!!!:)
sucker!!u always break my heart!!laughs,u rejected me again and again!!when do u want to start to accept me???i am so sad:p
nah!!!happy birthday sister,hope u will enjoy your birthday.you are my best sister!!!:thanks for the time,u always will listen to me when i am sad.u always will cheer me up.u never failed to be with me everytime.i am having a full of laughter when i am with you:) but,u still suck for breaking my heart!!!:p
i will be with you and always will be,u are my sister.we be that forever ok??:)

you my best cutest sister on earth!!!:)

why i did that?

TO jesslyn,
u might think why i treat u so good?as u know,in our group,u the one that i most care about.there's a certain reason that u don't know.
there's a reason when almost everyone know,because you are so CUTE:D laughs,but,not just that...
as u know,when time pass by,i get to understand u more.u always make me laugh when u do those silly things,thats for sure..example,in boonlay 7-eleven :D alot things actually..
another reason is most important,u always didn't failed to be with me when i was sad..when i saw your msg,i was so happy,because i know that i didn't dote wrong people.
there's fun when i with you,like,ton with you,chatted with you,send you back home,shopping with you and even saw u wear a tub only that time:D kidding.... i didn't regret to know you,even thought,people though i 'bian xin'' or some even thought i like you??its all rubbish actually....
i was so happy to met u,really.....
but,i just wanted u and everybody here to know why i treated u like this,because u my meix and always be:) thats simple:) i will be always with you,no matter what happen.you have a place in my heart:)

i have change....

why did i keep think that i have change??in my heart,there's only a few girls in my heart...
yinsin are my haopengyou. jesslyn and beeyoke are my little sisters. jade are my babo:) those four are the most important to me.i hardly talk to girls...my thinking change alot.
last time,i didn't talk to girls unless i know her for quite sometimes,but,why i kept talk to girls without my shyness?isit i feel that tiong xim is no longer important to me?whats the use?tiong xim is always being hurt.i hate the feeling..tiong xim then alot people will love you meh?
i tiong xim for year,what i have???a shit!!! i have nothing! what about people who at outside who loves to make friends with girls??they get alot??
WTF is this world doing???!i really don't understand......
thats why i change??but,i do felt ps for asking people for intro:D i don't do that,thats why i know less girls and hard to find a true love?
maybe i think alot? last time,i won't think so much.but,now??i keep always wanted to find an answer for my question in my head.

for what my friends told me,i become more violent? i don't know as well... that time i got her,i will think of not getting involve in certain things,because i have a girlfriend,she will worry.i didn't,i behave.even,went to study??until very hard,get myself promoted?i so happy and i told her.i study well,so next time i got future:) so happy,after that?? i got myself in a 'break up'.
after a month,what i become??a guy with no brain? i didn't care about my studies anymore.i didn't care about me.i care only my FRIENDS!! friends get into trouble,i will always be the hero.because friends is only what i have at outside..
i become so guai because of her,i become so violent also because of her.WTF??i change alot since then.but,one thing for sure.....

i didn't regreted having her as my girlfriend once,she was so cute back then:) good memories always kept inside my heart.because of her,i learned alot of things.i learn to move on, on my own.with her,i felt more confident in my doing.i felt so happy back then........

but,now..friends give me strength,u all made me laugh all the time,and u all didn't failed to be with me when i have trouble.i love u guys seriously alot.

BLACK EYEs:(

wtf??totally didn't slept for 2days two night.went over to mun fei house sleep 3hours kana woke up by my phone.went over to jurong point and???no people was around???wtf??all went off le by the time i reached there~.~ left me,rachel and simin.... waited for eddy!!!:) yeah!!we went to boonlay,meet yiling,mun fei and co.
after that,we slacked with fireboy,mun fei,jiahao,amelia,kar ming,jing ying and clarrisa. after tghat,kar ming ang jiahao left.accompany mun fei till morning~.~
nvm,i slept for 3 hours,i woke up because got taiji,meet fireboy and went down jp to meet ching long and co.
went 4head to find taiji,shouldn't say out after this part,but,is damn funny.
went to jurong point,as i was waiting jesslyn and beeyoke to come back from bugis.chatted with them and off i go home.
i couldn't even sleep propely,i was so worried if beeyoke suddenly want went out home.i must be alert!!! she don't have place go loh.stupid idoit,go beat her for what:( nvm,i wait till 6 bah:)

A GREAT DAY:)

went lakeside to meet chinglong and mun fei.accompany them to sub court again:) was waiting mun fei was a very long time,his lawyer very talkative got anot?me and ching long keep disiao that 'por long bao' :D
everything was done,40 minute.~.~ accompany mun fei to jurong point as ching long went bugis.
i ate alot today,went to eat mac with mun fei.i ate 1 large fries,1 filet-o-fish burger,1 double cheese burger,1 large coke.then went to MOS burger to eat 1ebi rice burger.but,i still hungry :D fireboy say i ''far yu''.but,mun fei say i ''far sheng xing;(went crazy)
i still hungry,steal sharron nugget loh:) i think i si lian le bah,i always si lian.eat alot.i don't know why :D
slacked at jurong point,eddy and chirst came to join us.went to prize stage to catch bear bear:) funny loh.mun fei keep disiao eddy"s papa mama at kopitiam.me and sharron keep 'bear' our laughter.as that stupid jesslyn suddenly laugh until so loud.hai me and sharron laugh too.
went home with si min and amelia.saw sihein and then CCY.

i always told myself,

don't care what people say,ignorance is the best:) live for yourself but not live for others sake.everyone have good point and bad point.we cannot just see people bad point,we also cannot just see people good point.forgive,but,we cannot forget what that person have done to u before.give them time to change,but,beware them.always take cation.if they change,welcome them.if they never change,fuck off from my life

i always used to forgive and forget,but,they hurt me after that......

used to think that the person won't hurt me but instead.alemak!!!a 'GOOD' friend indeed.but,i won't be affected by your judgement.as i say,ignorance and think positive.everything will be fine:) if u think,u are that good looking,be it then.:)
your jugdement will cause more silly and one day,you will have a "bao yin". i don't care what people say or whatever,u treat me as a friend,i welcome you.but,u wish to hurt me,fuck off.i don't need it.
i always told my little sister,bear with what people have said.ignorance is the best.what for to let people judge you.you happy,can already.we don't need any judgement.we just need fun,peace and laughter.life is like this.i don't change for others.i am myself.we could try to be perfect,but,no one is perfect.
if you see this,u think u are that 'GOOD' friend,you maybe are the one.becaus,no one will ever do this to your friend.but,only "YOU".

alex was still my best,he know me well.he understands me.for some people,they think i am crazy or super happy.but,for him,he knows that its only a mask for myself.faked a smile.i still rememeber he always say this,"i could sense that you are happy or sad,i don't know why.but,i will make u be the smiling guy no matter what.we will share the pain and everything.because you are my brothers.:)"
he always said that,i still remember well:) he was a really good brother to me.i have lost contact with him,but,i always remember him in my heart.his the only guy who knows me and understand me very well.was shocked to see that he could read mind.i really miss him alot,he is the one who teach me everything.think positive about yourself,don't let other people judgement to make you lost of confident.well,i will remember in my heart.thanks brother:) i hope you are living well in oversea or whatever.good luck ok??:)

i knows who got comment me behide my back and who didn't.i always wear a mask,is not because i don't dare to comment you back.is because,i feel that there is not a need to do that.i can ignore,but,rest asure,god won't ignore.i always believe in 'bao yin'.that day will come and it will double the pain u wanted to gave me.do u mean to hurt me or not,i don't know.but,i am sure...god knows it very well.i do what is the right for me,but,i don't hurt others that never offend me.u can hide but u can never run away from the eyes of the heaven.one day,u will be punish.that day will surely come.that is what i believe...
well,people who failed to hurt me,i am sorry..try better next time:)

THANKS:)

laughs,my daily life,still the same.....boonlay and jurongpoint.
but,yesterday,went to lim chu kang again.this is the third time i went this year.i am a very lucky guy,i didn't see a thing at all.:)but,this time round,i am verrryyy 'sick'.went in and have a big headaches inside and very dizzy.almost vomit..i don't know why,maybe...something strange was beside me?who's know??amelia keep scare scare,at house also scare?why she not as brave as me :p

i told almost everyone,i si lian liao..laughs,they didn't failed to be with me:)
thanks mun fei,jesslyn,yi ling,yinsin and sharron:)
alex and cass too!~
sometime,i don't have the mood to eat,but,sometimes....i eat alot:D pek chek bah:)
i seem to be happy,actually i am not...i just don't want them to be worried.i try bah...

now currently,waiting for 9o'clock to meet mun fei at lakeside.

SLEEPING PIG:)

was on the phone with jesslyn,sharron and mun fei last night.damn funny loh our topic :D what eddy mother wants to band jesslyn and sharron for playing eddy mother:D we kept at facebook scold eddy what your mama songka,your papa songka,your mama fly,can i fuck your mama??ETC. her mother got facebook,we don't know.heng,i stop playing le loh:D then we make up story what,eddy calls his own mother to band them:D laughs,laugh until can't sleep..
then what police catch jesslyn for cyble bullying.then me and sharron keeps compare with jesslyn the cute little girl and eddy the 20year olds guy with a full of tattoo.other people will say is eddy bully jesslyn,but,the truth is jesslyn bully eddy:Dwe kept laughing when we say that:D so cute got anot???
sharron was finding people to eat breakfast with her last night,we told her to find eddy's mother:D
i want go jesslyn house to eat cake and chocolate:) me and mun fei say want make love with her after eating:D cork alot,and we chatted until 3 to 4hours??until morning.

6woke up~.~ i sleep almost 12hours.going to be a pig soon.
bird at home,waiting for mun fei to reach boonlay then i go meet him.:)

I AM CHANGING

WTF???all those days i been at home,because the stupid starfactory!!!~~~ is close!!! no one was at jurongpoint,damn sian loh!!!~.~
nothing to do,everyday bird at home.
i been changing alot recently,yeah...alot~~~
i was quite easy dulan over something,keep anyhow think and having attidute towards some people when i was not in the good mood?
why???i just don't know what the fuck is happening to me~.~ i everytime,stay at home sleep.will dream of the past,can it stop???i don't want this anymore~.~ its a total nightmare when i woke up..sometimes,when i woke up,i saw my pillow,tears around it......
i keep telling myself,to be brave when my friend was all with me.but???its only courage me for awhile....i don't even know whats fucking wrong with me now adays??because of staying at home too much will cause me thinking of that??think of waiting her to be awake last time....
my heart felt so pain...i swear,the feeling i never felt before...
i love her very much..time have change,....i really hope to end my nightmare.

i felt another way that,20 cents have change towards me as well....but,i spoken to her:) felt so much better.
to me,you are a wonderful sister.u make me laugh when u do those silly things.i enjoy being with you.u like doesn't care me already~.~ nvm,there's a reason behide it.but,just to let u know.money and time isn't the problem.i don't need you to repay me anything,i just need you to smile always.for that,its my biggest repayment..i hope you don't get any wrong idea about me liking u?because people say so,but,just hack care them.we know we are nothing much more like brother and sister jiu can le.thanks for being with me everytime,u always talk to me and be my listening ear.u always scolded me what,shut up lah,kao pek la,ni mei you mao,suck my cork, etc.its quite cute huhh:) i hope,i never ever lose you as a friend.u are like a real sister to me now....
i hope i never lose my friends anymore...
i am not the "happy go lucky" guy anymore....

PREPARE

i hope it doesn't affect my life and changes.
i miss her really very much:( i always thought she was mine forever.but,its wrong~.~
why???because i failed to be a good boyfriend,thats why....i can't blame her~.~

SUNDAY:
only kar ming know what i am doing in the midnight.i didn't sleep at all.alright,morning went to jurongpoint just to give something to her:) when meeting her,i was caugh by mun fei.because he call me and i picked up :p he say he going to tell jesslyn i ji hong :p oooppps!!!nevermind about that:) i give her almost everything.even the book full of memories.i gave it to her,because i rather choose to let go of the past. i always use to read often and cried.but,not anymore....
i was going to burn it or something,but,i wish to pass for her to see.whats inside me..
nvm,waited for yinsin they all for 1hour plus~.~ i become birdie~.~ bird at jp everytime,interview and went to safra to play lan.play play play......WTF!!!!keep thinking about last time because somebody was playing audition,the song MISSY!! use to play with,her, my sister and her boyfriend everytime.we like the song very much:)
ARGH!!!!!!! was kinda sad over there..... went back to jurongpoint again,then headed to mun fei house alone~.~ because jesslyn didn't wait me and headed there first and i waited her at jp for hours~.~
after that,slept awhile...i was too tired because that night i haven't even sleep!!!!!woke up by mun fei,and i thought jesslyn was the pillow?? i almost hug it~.~ went to 4head to eat a macdonald with mun fei,jesslyn,yi ling and sharron.
really fuck up alot,HKE is me and my old friend use to hang with,alot of past memories as well.me and friend always eat there and run to fetch my sis and her.....
THEN!!!!! i ben lai wanted to go home,but,instead i took the bus and send jesslyn home.i don't want to go home back then:( after that,went to boonlay to find kar ming and sharron.slacked and HSH....
she doesn't know how much i love her........

monday:
keep asking beeyoke to come along ecp,because she my sister:) yeah,i have them.but,every person is different right?you are the person who keeps talk to me and listen to me and very caring. hehehes:) 7 then reach!!!WTF!!!its dark loh,intend to rent a bicycle,but,it was late already...was doing something to help kar ming with sharron,beeyoke,jesslyn,evan and antione??after that,everybody came.and kar ming ask for yi ling for PATCH:D yeah!!!and its a happy ending,thanks to us.....
cuting cake and cab to boonlay.slacked and police came.screen us and bring jeron home :D because he bluff police parent know he is at outside,but,police called her mother and the answer is NO:D byebye to him:) mun fei and co headed home when me,amelai,kar ming and co went enet to play lan.audition:)
slacked and hsh:)

TODAY:
at home bird!!!!!!!doing nothing.and i thought is her reply but,is jesslyn message~.~ headaches!!!gonna rest soon..

MAYBE?

maybe i won't wait anymore?
maybe it's my excuse to be losing?
maybe is because i felt that friends are more important now?
maybe is because i don't want to be like last time?
maybe is because i scare to get hurt again?
maybe is because i don't dare to ask?
maybe is because my feeling slowly fade away?
maybe is i don't wanna "hai" her?
maybe i just wanna to be single life?
maybe i felt that its not the right time?



was keep wondering all that~.~
WTF?i promise i won't cry.i will smile,even if i have to put on a fake one,i will do it:)
something really wrong with me...for the journey that i went,i pass by alot of things.having alot of problem.after all those things,i manage to give up myself?did i change?
i won't give up if it was the real me.is it too many things to manage?yeah.i think so?is not like me anymore?i becoming weaker now.really too much........
i just need to rest awhile and stop thinking about all those things first.what i need is to relax.i think too much..
i will surely be back......hope so,my mind was unclear now....can't those thing happen to someone else?don't happen to me?i was having alot test.i failed and failed.having stress everytime.
what should i do? what should i do?what should i do? what should i do?what should i do? what should i do?what should i do? what should i do?what should i do? what should i do?what should i do? what should i do?what should i do? what should i do?what should i do? what should i do?what should i do? what should i do?what should i do? what should i do?what should i do? what should i do?what should i do? what should i do?what should i do? what should i do?what should i do? what should i do?what should i do? what should i do?what should i do? what should i do?what should i do? what should i do?what should i do? what should i do?what should i do? what should i do?what should i do? what should i do?what should i do? what should i do?what should i do? what should i do?what should i do? what should i do?what should i do? what should i do?
i scare to trust someone again,i kept it from myself everytime.that's is why,i become so weak?maybe......

ALEMAK!

heelo everyone,the last post is post by cass.because i was too busy to post,and she helped me:)
alright,
yesterday,
bomb by mun fei.i come juronpoint and he don't want go le~.~intend to watch harry potter,but,its full:(
slack at art park with brothers.wtf?their gan ma wear until so funny!!!!sexy bitch:D me and gab keep hide at one corner laugh non stop.1hour also cannot stop sia:D we kept run and hide then laugh until very loud then cold down....then go find them again,then bear for a fews mintue and run to somewhere to laugh.stomach very pain,i message jade also cannot msg properly loh:D
after slacked,i heard alot of things.i hope its only a misunderstanding bah......i can't help them.both are my good sisters:( i wanted to help her say something,but,i can't...they really abit right..
let them settle themself bah:) hope they be fine once again.i don't want them quarrel....peace alright?a girl whom i dotes alot and pei me everytime and a girl whom always helped me and be my listening ears...
went to slack at bangala park and we went to lim chu kang at midnight:)
today,i lead everybody!!!:) sharron was my partner.message my sweet babo,she say she is mary?i also mary?we kept play that.hahaha.funny:)but,after that.strange things happen to sharron,we u-turn back~~~~she saw something and unable to breathe.i was dizzy as well.its took alot of courage to lead those KIDS.laughs.
walked back to 6head,1hour then reach bodoh~.~ because there are no taxi around.we saw police,and my cute qiwen shouted run.i hear that,i don't know why i run:D very exciting i think?funny loh...hsh home after slacked.
today,
at home bird and message my sweet babo:)

Tuesday:
Today,was quite a fking day for me.Early in the morning,my face alr black le.Becos of somebody dun noe hw to w8 for me ~.~haiye! Lazy say her la,ask her y didnt she w8 for me,she also noe i gg to reach le dun noe hw to contact me>
Plus,she juz go w8 mrt without me ?

And i reach le? She dun noe say wad gugu thing,make me even more pek chek ~.~lazy say her. Juz kip quiet loh. Listen my ear piece. Fk up alot
Y always this kind of stupid things happening to me?
Make me always pek chek one.
Borad the MRT wif gab,YinSin and Jesslyn. Went to bugis,hlp thm fins job all those. Me and jesslyn really go eat pastamania!
Believe me YinSin! She kept dun believe me~.~ thn bused to jurongeast to find job.
Hlp Jesslyn find untill crazy.
Kip hlping her ask. Thn went JP agn as thrs no job for her. Hlp her find agn.
8o'clock went boonlay to find munfei and chinlong
My cute jesslyn kip point at the point car,shout thr thr police car :D bt,the police onli below us,i think they heard dao? Laughs. They cm up screen us. Went to 208 c munfei they all play soccer. Thn hsh (:

I really dun noe wats happening to me those few days. Is it me? Or is it their doing makes me pek chek.
Dk wat happen to her today also? kip atitude me?
Its kinda hurt for nt waiting for m. Wat if tt train really cms? She confirm went up 1st. Wad abt me? Stay at JP bird or alone go thr ?
Nbm,i tink its too over le ba?
I think ? Sometimes,I really cant blame mike to pek chek me.

Even though he pekchek me for veri close to her and thrs a reason for it.
I understand. Bt,i still insist to be as same wif her becos i tot tt she cn prove to him tt he is wrong. Bt? Today incident really cant let me prove anything. Instead,ppl will laugh.
sometimes,I know she wanted to say thxs or watever to me.Bt,She choose to post it on blog.Laughs.
I c her happy cn le (: becos,i really treat her as a meix. She is a gd as a meix. She is gd to me as well. But,today...i cant really explain. Thrs a reason bah. I trust her (:

Jesslyn,juz let u noe.I dun nid any repayment frm u. Juz be normalself will do.
I never expect anything frm u. I treat u as meix Tts y. Is nt i wan jio u or wad. U happy,i happy (:
Thxs for everything. Dun feel bad abt me sneding u hm n walk u bk hm.Bt,u muz feel bad abt me worried abt u getting hm safety gt hm thn waste my time worried abt ur safety. Haha,if u r a guy tt dotes a person veri much thn u will understand it veri well (:
Thrs nth to be feeling bad of. If beeyoke,i would do the same as well.
U r a truely gd friend. Juz rmb tt,i wun let u be alone derh(:

i tired to post shorty....

SATURDAY:

went to jurong point meet mun fei and co.went to town area for yi ling advance birthday.walk walk.keep decide where to go,they didn't plan property in the first place~.~ me and jesslyn keep kpkb. like ah hai like that,keep stand at one corner decide~.~
nvm,they decide go bugis,then gigi they all don't know run to where liao.WTF?we at bugis street,they at iluma?
me,mun fei,chinglong and alot people waiting for them.more than 30min???fuck?? oh!yes!they finally came,we decide to go sheeshar:) then 5min,a big rain pours!!!!WTF? nothing we can do,so,we just walk.my biker jacket lend to jesslyn,because she having a fever~.~ guess what???i cold until snot feeling well~.~ nvm,who ask me to love her so much:)
reach over there,smoke.didnt smoke much too,don't like it alot thought.after that,went back to jurongpoint.accompany jesslyn to find beeyoke.chatted.slacked with mun fei and jesslyn.after that,send jesslyn home and guess what??she kp me for sending her home?what very ma fan??hello?is midnight already??~.~ she like not happy like that,but,i am happy to see her safe:) walking back home alone again~.~

SUNDAY:

tio bomb!!!!what go east coast?in the end,nobody go???hai me come out and early wake up???~.~
hahaha!!i at bus le,mun fei the called me.regret.find ching long at there.guess what???jesslyn feed me eat her ice cream,cute?but,the ice cream is full of her saliva!!!!bit by bit drop in my mouth!!!!then was like sticky sticky one with no favour.just like tap water!!!!EEEEK!!!i faster pull out that ice cream,almost vomit!!!!she still can laugh??!i didn't drink before people saliva before loh,not even my girlfriend.she must be lucky,she is the first one:)
hahaha!!!!nvm!!!we walking till half!!got one auntie step on jesslyn shoes,guess what??jesslyn shoes spoilted!!!joke of the day:D she also very cute de wor?? she go pick up her shoes,she at there kpkb say her shoes spoilt liao.then the auntie infront of her,faster walk away.thats my sis huhh.accompany go buy her shoes.was like asking her,why she don't want ask me find that auntie to ask her for money at the first place?? hai her no money eat~.~
at jurongpoint bird.something about yinsin and gabriel things,i shouldn't say out here.but,its quite funny just now:) wish them luck bah:)was kinda bu xi guan to see yinsin not with gabriel??
hope for the best bah:) buy fishball for yinsin as she no money eat.and then!!!!my turn no money eat after that:D she owe me one:)
was kinda attidute at night,because i was very tired.sleep 3hours only??abit of thing jiu pek chek le~.~ sorry if i attidute some of you.
alright,was quite early go home.jesslyn kp me again,say what haven't reach 10 don't need send her home.i say ok,but,i keep bu xi guan loh.see her go home herself.i never watched her go home herself before:(
reached home and comma awhile.
should i go court tommorrow?
mike asked me not to go because got CID catching us,dangerous.but,i just want to see them the last time~.~ i feel like going,i really feel like going there..... but,i don't know how to answer to mike.... i don't care whoever gonna catch me,i just want go.i will really miss them alot.....what should i do?mun fei and ching long will be disappointed if i not going...but,order are order.....lets just see about that tomorrow bah.

TRUST

'trust is easy to fall,but,hard to build back.'
i am a guy that is not easy to trust someone,i trust someone means i really treat him or her important to me.forget it.
today,i let someone disappointed too.sorry~ but,someone let me disappointed as well.say out but never say out the full story. is it good for you and me? its teaches me something,we can't really trust people and i must think before i acted.its true the words that i say,is too much.but,did i mean anything?i didn't even want to care about who with who,because my heart only have 1person that i like.hard to change?
today,i learn that human is very scary.i am in the wrong,yeah.i wrong that i should't say such thing at behide and i am wrong for trusting you as well.i told them not to spread beacause i don't want make him no face.here say,here sua.i am not the only one who say that.i didn't say the full story because i still treat u as a friend of mine.a important one.nvm,blame me for being not thinking when i was doing something.
u don't know how much this trust will it build again...
sorry for disappointing u bro.i know my mistake,i shouldn't do such a thing....

nah:) went to jurongpoint and police come screen us?wtf??!take my photo as well,my photo like ah hai like that,ask me stand striaght like prisoner loh.hope jurongpoint don't have any trouble.if not,i will be the first who went inside.waited for mun fei thats why i kana that~.~ nvm,i was so pek chek because i wanted to sleep.i got a little attidute bah i think?
mun fei at night then come loh,went to watch movie with them.what exorcise one?wtf?i at there sleep sia?camera keep moving round and round.very dizzy too~.~
i wanted to vomit loh,very xi gu loh.then we slacked awhile then send jesslyn home as it was very late already:) yaya~ my excuse always say very late cannot go home alone.Laughs,the truth is sometime not late at all i also send :p yeah,worried that she be alone bah:D must be touched ok??

reached home,thinking about lots of things.i watched my mouth from now on:) won't say wrong things anymore le.i hope:)

u heard that??trust is always an excuse.stupid then is true.nvm,i will still keep secret for you if you tell me your secret,because you trusted me,i don't want to do bastard when u trusted me and i go distrust your trust.you still have alot secret with me,but,i still choose not to say out.u still my good friend,i still treat u as one:)i said before,it doesn't matter what u done,u still my good friend and it will never change. thats all.,i now know that only brothers can be trusted.but,i still have some sisters that i always share my feeling with.right?u know who i talking hor??:) my two real sister and a girl that love gold colour hair so much:)

CONFIDENT:)

yeah:) long time never post.tell u my everyday life ok?:)

WORKING DAY:(although i always pon work:D )
morning wake up,work work work.keep wondering this,wondering that.
afternoon,end work went to jurongpoint find chinglong:)
night,send jesslyn home and walked back home:) (if she not around,then go home straight away.)i am a good guy:) anyway,promise mun fei i will do that as well,take it as an excuses for me bah:)

alright,not everybody i treat them so good one hor~.~ i should change.if not,always depend on me one~.~ i only treat those good who know what is call independent.

FREE DAY:
morning wake up,think of who to call.but,always is gabriel,yinsin,jesslyn,chinglong and mun fei one loh.meet either one of them at their favourite place.JURONGPOINT:)
afternoon,slack at arcade.doing nothing,relax myself.chat with brothers and sisters bah.
at night,standard.send jesslyn home ~.~ walked back home.(i close my eye,i also know how to go her house le nor.don't know send her home how many times le,countless.she comfirm love me very much one got anot:) always got a prince send her home,scare she kana rap.i be a hero!!!:) laughs.)
if i never go out,that means.i at home playing PS2!!!!:)

alright,what i doing on saturday and sunday.

SAT:
went to jurongpoint to meet jesslyn.accompany jesslyn to go mun fei house wake him up.laughs.video will do the talking:) there,my jesslyn and yi ling cute hor?i call them the two devils:)


in the end,after 1hour plus.they gave up and went to jp again.eat mac instead of steamboat:) went to bugis with,garrison,wen feng,beeyoke,jesslyn and yi ling.
beeyoke and jesslyn keep helped me to find my biker jacket:)
then went iluma played awhile.blahblahblah,went to sheeshar.delay a long time,because of rainning.
send jesslyn home at 11.mrt~.~ she doesn't wants to use my money for taxi.damn tired..take mrt,take bus to her house,then take bus to my house.its takes about 1 then reaches my house.
afterthat,i found out something..beeyoke first go home,last to reach home:D she and dessmond wait cab for 1hour plus :D what a funny joke:)

SUN:
went to find ah mike at chinatown with yinsin and gabriel.
three of us was waiting 9 for his work to finish.bird at there,chatted.
something happen as well,very funny!!!ask me personal bah.i lazy write so long :p
cab to mike house downstair eat and off we go home:)



i have confident in my doing.yeah:) this better be work,i think so long.why i never think of that at first?wtf?
alright,i have learned.even,if i have a steady.my brothers will also be first.i won't wei le her ps anybody anymore.even that,jesslyn or whatever close girls friend that i have,will still remain the same. a good friends of me,is always a good friends of me:) it won't change.unless,something cb happen:) but,i trust them:)

thats right,doing things must be confident,thats right:)

FINALLY!!!!

28th:
jesslyn lau hwee min bomb me for dying hair and going town~.~ hahaha!she sucks!i wear so nice,get a off day.in the end,slacked at jurongpoint.Laughs!alright,i understand la,don't need keep try to explain to me:)
can't remember what i do,went to mun fei house with her.she keep want jiawei don't want me:(sadded!!mun fei lend me ps2 games:) love die him!!:) i was telling him,i comfirm everyday play one. watch ghost show,when i wanted to go out pee,jesslyn don't let me go toilet!!!she scare ghost!she wanted to cry like that:D cute hor??was asking her 5 to 6 times.

me:can i go toilet now?
jesslyn:don't want i am scare:(

me:can i go toilet?i very urgent already:(
jesslyn:don't want.i don't want to be alone:(

me:ok,go out together,wait for me at outside the toilet?
jesslyn:don't want:(

me:*moving to her side to play computer,the bed moves,she open her eyes and faster glap me?she say,DON"T GO!!!:(

WTF?i being traped at there loh.heng,i am not that kind of guys.if not,u cmf die at my hand:) mun fei was home and i was safe!!!!:) send her home with cab and walked back home:) how sweet am i:)

29th:
went to become jesslyn biao ge:) at parent meeting.was meeting mun fei at jurongpoint.we headed to her school.meet up with jesslyn and went inside.the guard totally don't believe we two are her cousin.go in beat people then got:) we wear until so......don't know how to say.who will believe??
went to look for her teacher,her teacher also didn't believe.3min we can go already:D
bused back to jp,we was saying that,i am her biao ge.mun fei her father,chinglong her grandfather.:D
lunch at mac,jesslyn gan ma keep nag at us.say what jp got alot gangster,blahblah~~~ what qask us be carefull.
me and mun fei smiled. she doesn't know the jp gangster is one of us:)
acompany jesslyn at outside,she was wearing uniform.where the rest all went inside starfactory~~ jesslyn went home,and slacked with chinglong,mun fei,jade and her friends.
bused home to wait for jesslyn to come my houswe there,went to dye our hair.and jesslyn looked like ailibaba:D
bused to jp again and yeah.got taiji,me and gabriel run to find mun fei they all.will not say much about this topic,because its suck!!!!for that,i didn't even have time to celebrate jade birthday.WTF?sorry babo~.~
damn dulan!!!after that,went to fetch jesslyn again.slacked and send her home.walked back home:)

30TH:
BABO HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!!~~~
yeah,we know each other for 1 year plus le.yeah?sorry for keep attidute u or whatever!i am the first one who send happy birthday to u,sweet hor?:)i was having a countdown that time.actually,i got alot things to tell u.sorry for not celebrating with u as well,because suddenly got taiji one.BROTHER COME FIRST.i will not just see only.we meet up soon alright,i still have present for you that maybe u will like it??erm,,oh well..happy birthday!!!thanks for everything!:)

accompany beeyoke to dye hair with jesslyn.we two was laughing her.saying her maria:Djesslyn say jesus mother is maria??wtf??hahas,is mary alright??:D cute:)
after that,went to jp.lunch at there.jesslyn was giving me her love porriage:)she scare i hungry and xi sheng herself to give me eat her leftover:) laughs!i told her that was the best porriage in the world.because there is her saliva and her love inside:Dthey keep laughing when i say that:D
i am a very lucky boy to have tasted jesslyn saliva:)
they went to sentosa and yes!!!slacked at jp waiting them to come back.went vhinglong house to drink with jordan,gabriel and co.went to look for them at 1 o'clock!went to lim chu kang graveyard and walked around!
we keep joked and the girls was very scare:D keep playing at there.after that,headed back boonlay.actually,alot people got saw those thing.we 14 people go in,1/4 never see anything and hear anything.one of them is me:)but,abit dizzy went we go in.
slacked and send jesslyn home again!!!!i think i close 1eye,i already know how to walk back home already.walked back to boonlay and everyone was waiting for me at there.40min,i came back.
mun fei say i am a good guy:)fetching celia,and off back home.heng,i didn't saw those things:)