SLEEPING PIG:)

was on the phone with jesslyn,sharron and mun fei last night.damn funny loh our topic :D what eddy mother wants to band jesslyn and sharron for playing eddy mother:D we kept at facebook scold eddy what your mama songka,your papa songka,your mama fly,can i fuck your mama??ETC. her mother got facebook,we don't know.heng,i stop playing le loh:D then we make up story what,eddy calls his own mother to band them:D laughs,laugh until can't sleep..
then what police catch jesslyn for cyble bullying.then me and sharron keeps compare with jesslyn the cute little girl and eddy the 20year olds guy with a full of tattoo.other people will say is eddy bully jesslyn,but,the truth is jesslyn bully eddy:Dwe kept laughing when we say that:D so cute got anot???
sharron was finding people to eat breakfast with her last night,we told her to find eddy's mother:D
i want go jesslyn house to eat cake and chocolate:) me and mun fei say want make love with her after eating:D cork alot,and we chatted until 3 to 4hours??until morning.

6woke up~.~ i sleep almost 12hours.going to be a pig soon.
bird at home,waiting for mun fei to reach boonlay then i go meet him.:)

I AM CHANGING

WTF???all those days i been at home,because the stupid starfactory!!!~~~ is close!!! no one was at jurongpoint,damn sian loh!!!~.~
nothing to do,everyday bird at home.
i been changing alot recently,yeah...alot~~~
i was quite easy dulan over something,keep anyhow think and having attidute towards some people when i was not in the good mood?
why???i just don't know what the fuck is happening to me~.~ i everytime,stay at home sleep.will dream of the past,can it stop???i don't want this anymore~.~ its a total nightmare when i woke up..sometimes,when i woke up,i saw my pillow,tears around it......
i keep telling myself,to be brave when my friend was all with me.but???its only courage me for awhile....i don't even know whats fucking wrong with me now adays??because of staying at home too much will cause me thinking of that??think of waiting her to be awake last time....
my heart felt so pain...i swear,the feeling i never felt before...
i love her very much..time have change,....i really hope to end my nightmare.

i felt another way that,20 cents have change towards me as well....but,i spoken to her:) felt so much better.
to me,you are a wonderful sister.u make me laugh when u do those silly things.i enjoy being with you.u like doesn't care me already~.~ nvm,there's a reason behide it.but,just to let u know.money and time isn't the problem.i don't need you to repay me anything,i just need you to smile always.for that,its my biggest repayment..i hope you don't get any wrong idea about me liking u?because people say so,but,just hack care them.we know we are nothing much more like brother and sister jiu can le.thanks for being with me everytime,u always talk to me and be my listening ear.u always scolded me what,shut up lah,kao pek la,ni mei you mao,suck my cork, etc.its quite cute huhh:) i hope,i never ever lose you as a friend.u are like a real sister to me now....
i hope i never lose my friends anymore...
i am not the "happy go lucky" guy anymore....

PREPARE

i hope it doesn't affect my life and changes.
i miss her really very much:( i always thought she was mine forever.but,its wrong~.~
why???because i failed to be a good boyfriend,thats why....i can't blame her~.~

SUNDAY:
only kar ming know what i am doing in the midnight.i didn't sleep at all.alright,morning went to jurongpoint just to give something to her:) when meeting her,i was caugh by mun fei.because he call me and i picked up :p he say he going to tell jesslyn i ji hong :p oooppps!!!nevermind about that:) i give her almost everything.even the book full of memories.i gave it to her,because i rather choose to let go of the past. i always use to read often and cried.but,not anymore....
i was going to burn it or something,but,i wish to pass for her to see.whats inside me..
nvm,waited for yinsin they all for 1hour plus~.~ i become birdie~.~ bird at jp everytime,interview and went to safra to play lan.play play play......WTF!!!!keep thinking about last time because somebody was playing audition,the song MISSY!! use to play with,her, my sister and her boyfriend everytime.we like the song very much:)
ARGH!!!!!!! was kinda sad over there..... went back to jurongpoint again,then headed to mun fei house alone~.~ because jesslyn didn't wait me and headed there first and i waited her at jp for hours~.~
after that,slept awhile...i was too tired because that night i haven't even sleep!!!!!woke up by mun fei,and i thought jesslyn was the pillow?? i almost hug it~.~ went to 4head to eat a macdonald with mun fei,jesslyn,yi ling and sharron.
really fuck up alot,HKE is me and my old friend use to hang with,alot of past memories as well.me and friend always eat there and run to fetch my sis and her.....
THEN!!!!! i ben lai wanted to go home,but,instead i took the bus and send jesslyn home.i don't want to go home back then:( after that,went to boonlay to find kar ming and sharron.slacked and HSH....
she doesn't know how much i love her........

monday:
keep asking beeyoke to come along ecp,because she my sister:) yeah,i have them.but,every person is different right?you are the person who keeps talk to me and listen to me and very caring. hehehes:) 7 then reach!!!WTF!!!its dark loh,intend to rent a bicycle,but,it was late already...was doing something to help kar ming with sharron,beeyoke,jesslyn,evan and antione??after that,everybody came.and kar ming ask for yi ling for PATCH:D yeah!!!and its a happy ending,thanks to us.....
cuting cake and cab to boonlay.slacked and police came.screen us and bring jeron home :D because he bluff police parent know he is at outside,but,police called her mother and the answer is NO:D byebye to him:) mun fei and co headed home when me,amelai,kar ming and co went enet to play lan.audition:)
slacked and hsh:)

TODAY:
at home bird!!!!!!!doing nothing.and i thought is her reply but,is jesslyn message~.~ headaches!!!gonna rest soon..

MAYBE?

maybe i won't wait anymore?
maybe it's my excuse to be losing?
maybe is because i felt that friends are more important now?
maybe is because i don't want to be like last time?
maybe is because i scare to get hurt again?
maybe is because i don't dare to ask?
maybe is because my feeling slowly fade away?
maybe is i don't wanna "hai" her?
maybe i just wanna to be single life?
maybe i felt that its not the right time?



was keep wondering all that~.~
WTF?i promise i won't cry.i will smile,even if i have to put on a fake one,i will do it:)
something really wrong with me...for the journey that i went,i pass by alot of things.having alot of problem.after all those things,i manage to give up myself?did i change?
i won't give up if it was the real me.is it too many things to manage?yeah.i think so?is not like me anymore?i becoming weaker now.really too much........
i just need to rest awhile and stop thinking about all those things first.what i need is to relax.i think too much..
i will surely be back......hope so,my mind was unclear now....can't those thing happen to someone else?don't happen to me?i was having alot test.i failed and failed.having stress everytime.
what should i do? what should i do?what should i do? what should i do?what should i do? what should i do?what should i do? what should i do?what should i do? what should i do?what should i do? what should i do?what should i do? what should i do?what should i do? what should i do?what should i do? what should i do?what should i do? what should i do?what should i do? what should i do?what should i do? what should i do?what should i do? what should i do?what should i do? what should i do?what should i do? what should i do?what should i do? what should i do?what should i do? what should i do?what should i do? what should i do?what should i do? what should i do?what should i do? what should i do?what should i do? what should i do?what should i do? what should i do?what should i do? what should i do?what should i do? what should i do?
i scare to trust someone again,i kept it from myself everytime.that's is why,i become so weak?maybe......

ALEMAK!

heelo everyone,the last post is post by cass.because i was too busy to post,and she helped me:)
alright,
yesterday,
bomb by mun fei.i come juronpoint and he don't want go le~.~intend to watch harry potter,but,its full:(
slack at art park with brothers.wtf?their gan ma wear until so funny!!!!sexy bitch:D me and gab keep hide at one corner laugh non stop.1hour also cannot stop sia:D we kept run and hide then laugh until very loud then cold down....then go find them again,then bear for a fews mintue and run to somewhere to laugh.stomach very pain,i message jade also cannot msg properly loh:D
after slacked,i heard alot of things.i hope its only a misunderstanding bah......i can't help them.both are my good sisters:( i wanted to help her say something,but,i can't...they really abit right..
let them settle themself bah:) hope they be fine once again.i don't want them quarrel....peace alright?a girl whom i dotes alot and pei me everytime and a girl whom always helped me and be my listening ears...
went to slack at bangala park and we went to lim chu kang at midnight:)
today,i lead everybody!!!:) sharron was my partner.message my sweet babo,she say she is mary?i also mary?we kept play that.hahaha.funny:)but,after that.strange things happen to sharron,we u-turn back~~~~she saw something and unable to breathe.i was dizzy as well.its took alot of courage to lead those KIDS.laughs.
walked back to 6head,1hour then reach bodoh~.~ because there are no taxi around.we saw police,and my cute qiwen shouted run.i hear that,i don't know why i run:D very exciting i think?funny loh...hsh home after slacked.
today,
at home bird and message my sweet babo:)

Tuesday:
Today,was quite a fking day for me.Early in the morning,my face alr black le.Becos of somebody dun noe hw to w8 for me ~.~haiye! Lazy say her la,ask her y didnt she w8 for me,she also noe i gg to reach le dun noe hw to contact me>
Plus,she juz go w8 mrt without me ?

And i reach le? She dun noe say wad gugu thing,make me even more pek chek ~.~lazy say her. Juz kip quiet loh. Listen my ear piece. Fk up alot
Y always this kind of stupid things happening to me?
Make me always pek chek one.
Borad the MRT wif gab,YinSin and Jesslyn. Went to bugis,hlp thm fins job all those. Me and jesslyn really go eat pastamania!
Believe me YinSin! She kept dun believe me~.~ thn bused to jurongeast to find job.
Hlp Jesslyn find untill crazy.
Kip hlping her ask. Thn went JP agn as thrs no job for her. Hlp her find agn.
8o'clock went boonlay to find munfei and chinlong
My cute jesslyn kip point at the point car,shout thr thr police car :D bt,the police onli below us,i think they heard dao? Laughs. They cm up screen us. Went to 208 c munfei they all play soccer. Thn hsh (:

I really dun noe wats happening to me those few days. Is it me? Or is it their doing makes me pek chek.
Dk wat happen to her today also? kip atitude me?
Its kinda hurt for nt waiting for m. Wat if tt train really cms? She confirm went up 1st. Wad abt me? Stay at JP bird or alone go thr ?
Nbm,i tink its too over le ba?
I think ? Sometimes,I really cant blame mike to pek chek me.

Even though he pekchek me for veri close to her and thrs a reason for it.
I understand. Bt,i still insist to be as same wif her becos i tot tt she cn prove to him tt he is wrong. Bt? Today incident really cant let me prove anything. Instead,ppl will laugh.
sometimes,I know she wanted to say thxs or watever to me.Bt,She choose to post it on blog.Laughs.
I c her happy cn le (: becos,i really treat her as a meix. She is a gd as a meix. She is gd to me as well. But,today...i cant really explain. Thrs a reason bah. I trust her (:

Jesslyn,juz let u noe.I dun nid any repayment frm u. Juz be normalself will do.
I never expect anything frm u. I treat u as meix Tts y. Is nt i wan jio u or wad. U happy,i happy (:
Thxs for everything. Dun feel bad abt me sneding u hm n walk u bk hm.Bt,u muz feel bad abt me worried abt u getting hm safety gt hm thn waste my time worried abt ur safety. Haha,if u r a guy tt dotes a person veri much thn u will understand it veri well (:
Thrs nth to be feeling bad of. If beeyoke,i would do the same as well.
U r a truely gd friend. Juz rmb tt,i wun let u be alone derh(:

i tired to post shorty....

SATURDAY:

went to jurong point meet mun fei and co.went to town area for yi ling advance birthday.walk walk.keep decide where to go,they didn't plan property in the first place~.~ me and jesslyn keep kpkb. like ah hai like that,keep stand at one corner decide~.~
nvm,they decide go bugis,then gigi they all don't know run to where liao.WTF?we at bugis street,they at iluma?
me,mun fei,chinglong and alot people waiting for them.more than 30min???fuck?? oh!yes!they finally came,we decide to go sheeshar:) then 5min,a big rain pours!!!!WTF? nothing we can do,so,we just walk.my biker jacket lend to jesslyn,because she having a fever~.~ guess what???i cold until snot feeling well~.~ nvm,who ask me to love her so much:)
reach over there,smoke.didnt smoke much too,don't like it alot thought.after that,went back to jurongpoint.accompany jesslyn to find beeyoke.chatted.slacked with mun fei and jesslyn.after that,send jesslyn home and guess what??she kp me for sending her home?what very ma fan??hello?is midnight already??~.~ she like not happy like that,but,i am happy to see her safe:) walking back home alone again~.~

SUNDAY:

tio bomb!!!!what go east coast?in the end,nobody go???hai me come out and early wake up???~.~
hahaha!!i at bus le,mun fei the called me.regret.find ching long at there.guess what???jesslyn feed me eat her ice cream,cute?but,the ice cream is full of her saliva!!!!bit by bit drop in my mouth!!!!then was like sticky sticky one with no favour.just like tap water!!!!EEEEK!!!i faster pull out that ice cream,almost vomit!!!!she still can laugh??!i didn't drink before people saliva before loh,not even my girlfriend.she must be lucky,she is the first one:)
hahaha!!!!nvm!!!we walking till half!!got one auntie step on jesslyn shoes,guess what??jesslyn shoes spoilted!!!joke of the day:D she also very cute de wor?? she go pick up her shoes,she at there kpkb say her shoes spoilt liao.then the auntie infront of her,faster walk away.thats my sis huhh.accompany go buy her shoes.was like asking her,why she don't want ask me find that auntie to ask her for money at the first place?? hai her no money eat~.~
at jurongpoint bird.something about yinsin and gabriel things,i shouldn't say out here.but,its quite funny just now:) wish them luck bah:)was kinda bu xi guan to see yinsin not with gabriel??
hope for the best bah:) buy fishball for yinsin as she no money eat.and then!!!!my turn no money eat after that:D she owe me one:)
was kinda attidute at night,because i was very tired.sleep 3hours only??abit of thing jiu pek chek le~.~ sorry if i attidute some of you.
alright,was quite early go home.jesslyn kp me again,say what haven't reach 10 don't need send her home.i say ok,but,i keep bu xi guan loh.see her go home herself.i never watched her go home herself before:(
reached home and comma awhile.
should i go court tommorrow?
mike asked me not to go because got CID catching us,dangerous.but,i just want to see them the last time~.~ i feel like going,i really feel like going there..... but,i don't know how to answer to mike.... i don't care whoever gonna catch me,i just want go.i will really miss them alot.....what should i do?mun fei and ching long will be disappointed if i not going...but,order are order.....lets just see about that tomorrow bah.

TRUST

'trust is easy to fall,but,hard to build back.'
i am a guy that is not easy to trust someone,i trust someone means i really treat him or her important to me.forget it.
today,i let someone disappointed too.sorry~ but,someone let me disappointed as well.say out but never say out the full story. is it good for you and me? its teaches me something,we can't really trust people and i must think before i acted.its true the words that i say,is too much.but,did i mean anything?i didn't even want to care about who with who,because my heart only have 1person that i like.hard to change?
today,i learn that human is very scary.i am in the wrong,yeah.i wrong that i should't say such thing at behide and i am wrong for trusting you as well.i told them not to spread beacause i don't want make him no face.here say,here sua.i am not the only one who say that.i didn't say the full story because i still treat u as a friend of mine.a important one.nvm,blame me for being not thinking when i was doing something.
u don't know how much this trust will it build again...
sorry for disappointing u bro.i know my mistake,i shouldn't do such a thing....

nah:) went to jurongpoint and police come screen us?wtf??!take my photo as well,my photo like ah hai like that,ask me stand striaght like prisoner loh.hope jurongpoint don't have any trouble.if not,i will be the first who went inside.waited for mun fei thats why i kana that~.~ nvm,i was so pek chek because i wanted to sleep.i got a little attidute bah i think?
mun fei at night then come loh,went to watch movie with them.what exorcise one?wtf?i at there sleep sia?camera keep moving round and round.very dizzy too~.~
i wanted to vomit loh,very xi gu loh.then we slacked awhile then send jesslyn home as it was very late already:) yaya~ my excuse always say very late cannot go home alone.Laughs,the truth is sometime not late at all i also send :p yeah,worried that she be alone bah:D must be touched ok??

reached home,thinking about lots of things.i watched my mouth from now on:) won't say wrong things anymore le.i hope:)

u heard that??trust is always an excuse.stupid then is true.nvm,i will still keep secret for you if you tell me your secret,because you trusted me,i don't want to do bastard when u trusted me and i go distrust your trust.you still have alot secret with me,but,i still choose not to say out.u still my good friend,i still treat u as one:)i said before,it doesn't matter what u done,u still my good friend and it will never change. thats all.,i now know that only brothers can be trusted.but,i still have some sisters that i always share my feeling with.right?u know who i talking hor??:) my two real sister and a girl that love gold colour hair so much:)

CONFIDENT:)

yeah:) long time never post.tell u my everyday life ok?:)

WORKING DAY:(although i always pon work:D )
morning wake up,work work work.keep wondering this,wondering that.
afternoon,end work went to jurongpoint find chinglong:)
night,send jesslyn home and walked back home:) (if she not around,then go home straight away.)i am a good guy:) anyway,promise mun fei i will do that as well,take it as an excuses for me bah:)

alright,not everybody i treat them so good one hor~.~ i should change.if not,always depend on me one~.~ i only treat those good who know what is call independent.

FREE DAY:
morning wake up,think of who to call.but,always is gabriel,yinsin,jesslyn,chinglong and mun fei one loh.meet either one of them at their favourite place.JURONGPOINT:)
afternoon,slack at arcade.doing nothing,relax myself.chat with brothers and sisters bah.
at night,standard.send jesslyn home ~.~ walked back home.(i close my eye,i also know how to go her house le nor.don't know send her home how many times le,countless.she comfirm love me very much one got anot:) always got a prince send her home,scare she kana rap.i be a hero!!!:) laughs.)
if i never go out,that means.i at home playing PS2!!!!:)

alright,what i doing on saturday and sunday.

SAT:
went to jurongpoint to meet jesslyn.accompany jesslyn to go mun fei house wake him up.laughs.video will do the talking:) there,my jesslyn and yi ling cute hor?i call them the two devils:)


in the end,after 1hour plus.they gave up and went to jp again.eat mac instead of steamboat:) went to bugis with,garrison,wen feng,beeyoke,jesslyn and yi ling.
beeyoke and jesslyn keep helped me to find my biker jacket:)
then went iluma played awhile.blahblahblah,went to sheeshar.delay a long time,because of rainning.
send jesslyn home at 11.mrt~.~ she doesn't wants to use my money for taxi.damn tired..take mrt,take bus to her house,then take bus to my house.its takes about 1 then reaches my house.
afterthat,i found out something..beeyoke first go home,last to reach home:D she and dessmond wait cab for 1hour plus :D what a funny joke:)

SUN:
went to find ah mike at chinatown with yinsin and gabriel.
three of us was waiting 9 for his work to finish.bird at there,chatted.
something happen as well,very funny!!!ask me personal bah.i lazy write so long :p
cab to mike house downstair eat and off we go home:)



i have confident in my doing.yeah:) this better be work,i think so long.why i never think of that at first?wtf?
alright,i have learned.even,if i have a steady.my brothers will also be first.i won't wei le her ps anybody anymore.even that,jesslyn or whatever close girls friend that i have,will still remain the same. a good friends of me,is always a good friends of me:) it won't change.unless,something cb happen:) but,i trust them:)

thats right,doing things must be confident,thats right:)