SLEEPING PIG:)

was on the phone with jesslyn,sharron and mun fei last night.damn funny loh our topic :D what eddy mother wants to band jesslyn and sharron for playing eddy mother:D we kept at facebook scold eddy what your mama songka,your papa songka,your mama fly,can i fuck your mama??ETC. her mother got facebook,we don't know.heng,i stop playing le loh:D then we make up story what,eddy calls his own mother to band them:D laughs,laugh until can't sleep..
then what police catch jesslyn for cyble bullying.then me and sharron keeps compare with jesslyn the cute little girl and eddy the 20year olds guy with a full of tattoo.other people will say is eddy bully jesslyn,but,the truth is jesslyn bully eddy:Dwe kept laughing when we say that:D so cute got anot???
sharron was finding people to eat breakfast with her last night,we told her to find eddy's mother:D
i want go jesslyn house to eat cake and chocolate:) me and mun fei say want make love with her after eating:D cork alot,and we chatted until 3 to 4hours??until morning.

6woke up~.~ i sleep almost 12hours.going to be a pig soon.
bird at home,waiting for mun fei to reach boonlay then i go meet him.:)

I AM CHANGING

WTF???all those days i been at home,because the stupid starfactory!!!~~~ is close!!! no one was at jurongpoint,damn sian loh!!!~.~
nothing to do,everyday bird at home.
i been changing alot recently,yeah...alot~~~
i was quite easy dulan over something,keep anyhow think and having attidute towards some people when i was not in the good mood?
why???i just don't know what the fuck is happening to me~.~ i everytime,stay at home sleep.will dream of the past,can it stop???i don't want this anymore~.~ its a total nightmare when i woke up..sometimes,when i woke up,i saw my pillow,tears around it......
i keep telling myself,to be brave when my friend was all with me.but???its only courage me for awhile....i don't even know whats fucking wrong with me now adays??because of staying at home too much will cause me thinking of that??think of waiting her to be awake last time....
my heart felt so pain...i swear,the feeling i never felt before...
i love her very much..time have change,....i really hope to end my nightmare.

i felt another way that,20 cents have change towards me as well....but,i spoken to her:) felt so much better.
to me,you are a wonderful sister.u make me laugh when u do those silly things.i enjoy being with you.u like doesn't care me already~.~ nvm,there's a reason behide it.but,just to let u know.money and time isn't the problem.i don't need you to repay me anything,i just need you to smile always.for that,its my biggest repayment..i hope you don't get any wrong idea about me liking u?because people say so,but,just hack care them.we know we are nothing much more like brother and sister jiu can le.thanks for being with me everytime,u always talk to me and be my listening ear.u always scolded me what,shut up lah,kao pek la,ni mei you mao,suck my cork, etc.its quite cute huhh:) i hope,i never ever lose you as a friend.u are like a real sister to me now....
i hope i never lose my friends anymore...
i am not the "happy go lucky" guy anymore....

PREPARE

i hope it doesn't affect my life and changes.
i miss her really very much:( i always thought she was mine forever.but,its wrong~.~
why???because i failed to be a good boyfriend,thats why....i can't blame her~.~

SUNDAY:
only kar ming know what i am doing in the midnight.i didn't sleep at all.alright,morning went to jurongpoint just to give something to her:) when meeting her,i was caugh by mun fei.because he call me and i picked up :p he say he going to tell jesslyn i ji hong :p oooppps!!!nevermind about that:) i give her almost everything.even the book full of memories.i gave it to her,because i rather choose to let go of the past. i always use to read often and cried.but,not anymore....
i was going to burn it or something,but,i wish to pass for her to see.whats inside me..
nvm,waited for yinsin they all for 1hour plus~.~ i become birdie~.~ bird at jp everytime,interview and went to safra to play lan.play play play......WTF!!!!keep thinking about last time because somebody was playing audition,the song MISSY!! use to play with,her, my sister and her boyfriend everytime.we like the song very much:)
ARGH!!!!!!! was kinda sad over there..... went back to jurongpoint again,then headed to mun fei house alone~.~ because jesslyn didn't wait me and headed there first and i waited her at jp for hours~.~
after that,slept awhile...i was too tired because that night i haven't even sleep!!!!!woke up by mun fei,and i thought jesslyn was the pillow?? i almost hug it~.~ went to 4head to eat a macdonald with mun fei,jesslyn,yi ling and sharron.
really fuck up alot,HKE is me and my old friend use to hang with,alot of past memories as well.me and friend always eat there and run to fetch my sis and her.....
THEN!!!!! i ben lai wanted to go home,but,instead i took the bus and send jesslyn home.i don't want to go home back then:( after that,went to boonlay to find kar ming and sharron.slacked and HSH....
she doesn't know how much i love her........

monday:
keep asking beeyoke to come along ecp,because she my sister:) yeah,i have them.but,every person is different right?you are the person who keeps talk to me and listen to me and very caring. hehehes:) 7 then reach!!!WTF!!!its dark loh,intend to rent a bicycle,but,it was late already...was doing something to help kar ming with sharron,beeyoke,jesslyn,evan and antione??after that,everybody came.and kar ming ask for yi ling for PATCH:D yeah!!!and its a happy ending,thanks to us.....
cuting cake and cab to boonlay.slacked and police came.screen us and bring jeron home :D because he bluff police parent know he is at outside,but,police called her mother and the answer is NO:D byebye to him:) mun fei and co headed home when me,amelai,kar ming and co went enet to play lan.audition:)
slacked and hsh:)

TODAY:
at home bird!!!!!!!doing nothing.and i thought is her reply but,is jesslyn message~.~ headaches!!!gonna rest soon..

MAYBE?

maybe i won't wait anymore?
maybe it's my excuse to be losing?
maybe is because i felt that friends are more important now?
maybe is because i don't want to be like last time?
maybe is because i scare to get hurt again?
maybe is because i don't dare to ask?
maybe is because my feeling slowly fade away?
maybe is i don't wanna "hai" her?
maybe i just wanna to be single life?
maybe i felt that its not the right time?



was keep wondering all that~.~
WTF?i promise i won't cry.i will smile,even if i have to put on a fake one,i will do it:)
something really wrong with me...for the journey that i went,i pass by alot of things.having alot of problem.after all those things,i manage to give up myself?did i change?
i won't give up if it was the real me.is it too many things to manage?yeah.i think so?is not like me anymore?i becoming weaker now.really too much........
i just need to rest awhile and stop thinking about all those things first.what i need is to relax.i think too much..
i will surely be back......hope so,my mind was unclear now....can't those thing happen to someone else?don't happen to me?i was having alot test.i failed and failed.having stress everytime.
what should i do? what should i do?what should i do? what should i do?what should i do? what should i do?what should i do? what should i do?what should i do? what should i do?what should i do? what should i do?what should i do? what should i do?what should i do? what should i do?what should i do? what should i do?what should i do? what should i do?what should i do? what should i do?what should i do? what should i do?what should i do? what should i do?what should i do? what should i do?what should i do? what should i do?what should i do? what should i do?what should i do? what should i do?what should i do? what should i do?what should i do? what should i do?what should i do? what should i do?what should i do? what should i do?what should i do? what should i do?what should i do? what should i do?what should i do? what should i do?
i scare to trust someone again,i kept it from myself everytime.that's is why,i become so weak?maybe......